The night before I saw you last…

I tried writing you a couplet

It didn’t go too well

So I’ll just tell you

That maybe

I love you

Couplets aren’t really my thing

I doubt you really care

Whether or not

I like you

Whatever

I thought a couplet might’ve been easier

Telling you might’ve been

Easy, maybe, too

Wouldn’t hurt

To try?

Couplet or not, matters not, in the end

What happened, happened

I won’t ever, really

See you any

More, so

Bye.

Here’s the couplet I never wrote for you

Here’s all the things I’ve never said

Here’s all the things that

I wish would’ve

Happened.

I love you? Maybe?

I AM TOTALLY OVER HIM. SHUT IT. NOW.

How sick at heart I am? How sick at heart I am. Oh, but, but, the fact that with a single click the distance that separates my aching heart from satisfaction is so easily in reach…

Okay, get over it. Get over it. Command. Get over it. NOW.

Cmon, cmon, cmon, cmon, cmon, cmon. Stop. Shut up. Let it goooo. Let all of it just go.

STOP, STOP THINKING ABOUT IT.

Okay, I know the feeling. I know the feeling. It might just be your period, or you might really miss, or might have really loved him, I don’t really know, but kid, kid, kid, kid, stop. STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. Let it go.

Please.

Because I don’t like it any more than you do.

I don’t like sitting next to Alex and having a gaping hole where the love of my life used to be.

I don’t like going to school on Monday and knowing that between third and fourth I won’t run into him (OR MILES) and maybe during 7th, I’d catch him going out to lunch with one of his silly friends and during 8th, not having him sit next to me, to do all the little weird things we do in class, to distract me long enough to have me fail, to distract me long enough so that I sit at home and type about him like a retard. And that, 9th period, he won’t be there anymore either. He won’t be in the back of the library, with his stupid computer and his stupid stupid stupid everything.

Can we stop feeling like we’re going to throw up?