A gloved hand held the fruit, teeth resting against the firm, smooth skin, a moment of hesitation, the sun in his eyes and the flutter of wings, he bit the apple. Enamel tour through the crisp flesh, filling his nostrils with a sweet scent that he had always been fond of. The other hand rested limply in the pocket of his pants, fingering loose change, a ticket stub and the single key to his apartment. He was standing too close to the platform, his mother would have a fit.

 

 

Thumb strikes the flint wheel, a flame whispers to life, lingers for a moment and vanishes as quickly as it had appeared,

 

Thumb struck the flint wheel, produced an ephemeral, whispering flame, lingered for a moment before vanishing as quickly as it had appeared, retracting into the darkness as the lighter snapped shut. Exhaling a satisfied puff smoke, he relished in its metallic chill and allowed gravity to sink the lighter, drifting to the bottom of his pocket. A thin, diaphanous wisp of smoke drifted toward the crisp September sky. His grey eyes following each movement, met the open heavens, scattered patches of clouds and stillness in the air that accompanied autumn afternoons. The station platform was empty, a vast expanse of loneliness upon which he stood, smoking, brooding, waiting.

            The cigarette, caught between his index and middle finger, moved slowly to his lips, hovered there for a moment, the flutter of wings and a ghost from his memories, he inhaled. Had a habit of mumbling with a hand and cigarette over his lips, of slouching because he never enjoyed his height, of fiddling with things in his pocket, of standing too close to the platform edge, his mother would yell at him, of being impatient, but he was waiting now. He made her a promise, didn’t he? He’d wait for her, and so, he’s waiting. A pained smirk, of all the promises to keep

           

So, he’s back from camp and he changed…

I think I’m going to melt, the mere sight of your cobalt irises, spiked with daggers of green, the ringlets of your golden, honey colored hair, the silk of your dress falling gently on the curves of your body as twirl and twirl beneath the ghostly white moon. If only I could pour my heart and soul, like water fro a pitcher, a shimmering mess of my emotions, into your hands, letting it seep between your fingers, if only I could show you how my heart trembles and weeps and breaks and swoons, if only you could see how your smile strangles me, if only you could see how this love ails me so, if only you could love me.

 

I’m a bit of a melodramatic fool; comes with the job, goes with the job, probably is the job. To blow everything incredibly out of proportions and to expect that a round peg fits into a square hole. One of these, I’m just going to give up and ram the damn peg into the hole, hell with fitting in, I’m out of place wherever I go. That’s that and that’s all there ever will be. I’m satisfied and oddly content with squandering the rest of my over analyzing Japanese anime. It’s a good life, what’s wrong with being independent? I’ll tell you what’s wrong, the world wants conformity, the world wants a nice square peg to shove into the nice square hole. Problems arise when the peg is round. What’s wrong with being independent? I’m not going to get what I want. Playing the game will set me free? I think not, I’ll just be dragged down, sink into the quagmire that is life. That’ll be that, my melodramatic fool. Farewell, farewell.